I Wonder...I Ask..I Wait...I Watch...

I Wonder and ask God day and night why I am like the way I am ? Why can't I simply ignore things happening around me like others,why can't I just stay happy with a good salary Like others , why can't I simple marry and settle in my Life Like Others, why can't I take things lightly Like others,why can't I adopt shitty office politics Like Others, why can't I just remain content with myself and stop dreaming Like Others, why can't I just accept the situation and be calm Like others, why can't I simply ignore bad things happening to others Like many,why can't I do a wrong act how so ever small it may be without any guilt feeling , Like others,Why can't I adopt the mean office culture like others, why can't I stab people's trust Like others,why can't I be selfish like others,why do I have to challenge my present situation for fulfillment and can't simply get it like Others ??? The only answer I to get from God is : "Don't worry son, I have made you for a bigger and better purpose THAN OTHERS,so the price you have to pay for that will obviously be different THAN OTHERS..."

An invisible Force always walks with us !

Amidst all the unrest hat was going through my Onsite Life, came a good news that made me so happy and inspired ,that its difficult to describe in words,but still I will try. It was a Saturday morning when Aman called me,which i could not pick as it was just 9 am , and 9 am on a weekend day is sleeping time !! But when I woke up Isaw a missed call from Aman on my cell and a scrap on Orkut, that said "Oh tu phone kyon nai chak reha,aithe heart attack hon lga hai mainu ! " , with these words I somehow guessed what it could be but still made no speculations owing to the great things that have been happening in my life turning everything upside down in the past . But i gained courage and called Aman, and he told me that the CAT results were out and he has scored a percentile of 96.12 ! It may not be a super percentile for some but for someone like Aman siting on bench for nearly 2 and a half years now ,and having a great calibre and capabilities ,and almost dead with his self confidence thanks to the great IT culture, this was a dream come true.But when I heard his result I all of a sudden remebered our long walks in streets of sector 34 full of discussions about IT,CAT,Settling in foreign country etc etc. Aman used to imagine a percentile of 95 so that he could admission in our dream MBA college UBS Chandigarh and while walking on the streets of sector 34 I used to say him that he would get it and we used to laugh how he would be so busy when he would get calls from all the MBA colleges around India.Believe me at that time somehow we were very disturbed with the way our lives were progressing ,crushing our abilities,aims and most importantly our self beliefs about the image we had of ourselves, and to dream that big at that time was a big thing for us! There is an interesting story linked to all this that might appeal to some while ridicule to others. There is a House in sector 34 ,and on the front gate of that house its written "Beware of Dogs" and believe me in last 3 years all we have seen at that place is dogs only with no trace of humans ! But the interesting thing here is whenever Aman and me used to pass through that place while discussing our big plans,Dogs started barking and believe me they could miss barking on other people passing in front of their house but never on us,which was quite embarrasing as if we are thieves and they recognised us and started barking. But one day I read somewhere that Dogs and animals have a special ability to see supernatural things invisible to an human eye(Relax guys,its a scentific proven fact ! ) , They could sense all supernatural powers,storms,thunders,earthquake etc. And When on Saturday Aman told me that he had secured such a high percentile, I realised what was that thing on which the dogs barked ,it was none other than an Invisible supernatural force that walked with us while we walked in streets of sector 34,listening to our plans, our planning to realise them. That Angel on which the dogs barked made sure that we attain whatever we plannned for,whatever we sweat for,whatever we worked hard for. And let me tell you ,Aman presently has cleared GDs and Interviews for LBS,SYMBOISIS (Rank 1 !!) ,IMI,IIFT, and many others (Remember as I mentioned earlier we use to discuss exactly this ,the scene it would be when Aman would be busy attending GDs,interviews etc from colleges from all around india !!! ),And that Invisible supernatural force ,made sure our talks and discussions just din't disappear under our sarcastic remarks to ourselves but they proved fruitful with our hardwork.
Now Hoping that this Invisible supernatural force now stays with me as well for execution of my share of plans and dreams,though I am yet to put my full efforts on it . Aman is almost thorugh,with just one small hurdle before he reaches his dream, Its now my turn to execute and do hardwork for my share of plans and dreams that now stand unfulfilled waiting for me to execute them and do justice to the Dog's Barking and hence that Invisible supernatural force that always listens to us and stays with us all the time...and makes sure we get what we want,expecting us to trust it and move forward with no fear and full of Confidence...

Dreams-A living Force

For all those ( Like me ! ) who are afraid of going after their dreams ,this article is somewhat inspiring. I found this on net and thought of sharing it with you :
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A man lay on his bed at the end of his life waiting to die. His dream came to pay its last respects and bid farewell to the man who had never used it.
As it entered the room the man looked down in shame.

“Why did you not realise me?” the dream asked.
“Because I was afraid,” the man said.

“Afraid of what?” asked the dream.
Man : “I was afraid I would fail.”

Dream : “But haven’t you failed by not attempting to use me?”
Man : “Yes I have, but I always thought there would be tomorrow.”

“You fool!” said the dream, “Did it never occur to you that there was only ever today… the moment that you are in right now? Do you think that now that death is here you can put it off until tomorrow?”
“No.” said the man, a tear gently rolling down his cheek.
The dream was softer now, because it knew that there were two types of pain – the pain of discipline, and the pain of regret – and while discipline weighs ounces, regret weighs pounds.
Then the dream leaned forward to gently wipe away the tear and said, “You need only have taken the first step and I would have taken one to meet you, for the only thing that ever separated us was the belief in your mind that you couldn’t have me.”
Then they said goodbye and they both died.
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The above article is very inspiring,but it seems I have got into this bad habit of waiting for all
lights to turn green, of seeing the disadvantages more than the advantages of doing a thing even before I start doing it, But I still have the hope that I am going to turn these negative habits upside down and go out their in full blow to challenge my present situation,to attain what I want, to do whats in my heart , But the only question that haunts me ( And I know to all others in the same situation ! ) everyday is "When ? " ....

A Planned Way To Spend A Long Weekend ?

After so many days of juggling between home to office and office to home and doing practically nothing useful or amusing, a long weekend with 4 day holidays was always welcome. We thought of going to Scotland in this break,but it was merely a paper planning and nothing actually happened with someone making faces on the expenses , some others on weather and the remaining one simply because of certain lifeless boring qualities that were imbibed in them in their childhood by themselves ! All of them wanted a planned holiday with no one willing to plan, however i took the charge as i realised that all of us have the potential of saying and doing nothing at all and still destroying Everyone's plans. Finally with 2 days to go before the long weekend ,the buck stopped at London and I left no website unturned ( well almost ! ) to find out the cheapest accomodation and travel to suit all . Mind you the accomodation was already full in 90 percent of the Lounges,Hotels and Youth Hostels as it was Easter time . However the problem was that everyone wanted cooked food and I was ready to cook it and gathering everything required for it ,but then they also wanted the price of the food to be very low at the same time and and each one had a different way to define Low Cost !!! However I was still finding a way out when one of the seniors got inspired and a desire came to his mind to contribute something good to the plan and with all the positive intentions he googled "weather in london on weekend" , the search gave more than 10 lac results,however he picked up the very first link by BBC which said : " Heavy Rainfall and thundery showers 'EXPECTED' in London" , This was enough for them to convince themselves to save their 50-60 pounds which would have been spent on this London trip. It was hard to guess for me that whether we were Sad because of program cancellation or were all of us happy with our financial victory( Saving trip's 60 pounds ! Even though it meant rotting at home for 4 days) . However this proved to be the last straw to break the Camel's back and the program was cancelled ( Even before it was actually made we can say ! ) .
On the night before all this I had a conversation with Jaspal about there were some people who were planning a holiday and we can group with them and go and save ourselves from rotting at home in those four holidays, but to my shock he very bluntly and in the most ill mannered way said to me " You should have Gone,if you find someone to take you along with them, you shouldn't wait for us " , I felt as if a fire ball had struck my head , as i was waiting for everyone to go together , anyways i always like to explore alone with no unnecessary advices and Do's and Dont's, and i did my best to maintain my cool on this blunt remark and a sarcastic suggestion( I felt Bad Jassi :( ). I called Vinil(My College Friend ) at that time in the night itself and asked him if i could come to his place in Coventry on this weekend. He was more than happy to meet me and welcomed me to his place without any second thought, and he even started searching online to find the tickets for me from Ipswich to Coventry on the call itself ( To be frank ,I never expected such a warm response from someone in this country ! )
Next day I booked the decided tickets (after the London trip was also cancelled ) for Saturday morning and return on Sunday evening.I booked a cab to railway station on friday night itself to avoid any hassles at the last moment and miss the train .On Saturday i woke up at 4 am ( Yes its true ! But actually the ticket cost's of 66 Pounds inpired me to wake up at time to catch the train! ) and i tried my best to quickly get ready before the cab arrives at my home. However the cab driver had different ideas and seemed to be more eager than me and reached my place 15 minutes prior to scheduled time and i had to hurry by quickly drinking a glass of milk and popping an apple in my jacket's pocket . Then off we went to the Ipswich railway station, to start my first ever independent Journey in UK...