I Wonder...I Ask..I Wait...I Watch...

I Wonder and ask God day and night why I am like the way I am ? Why can't I simply ignore things happening around me like others,why can't I just stay happy with a good salary Like others , why can't I simple marry and settle in my Life Like Others, why can't I take things lightly Like others,why can't I adopt shitty office politics Like Others, why can't I just remain content with myself and stop dreaming Like Others, why can't I just accept the situation and be calm Like others, why can't I simply ignore bad things happening to others Like many,why can't I do a wrong act how so ever small it may be without any guilt feeling , Like others,Why can't I adopt the mean office culture like others, why can't I stab people's trust Like others,why can't I be selfish like others,why do I have to challenge my present situation for fulfillment and can't simply get it like Others ??? The only answer I to get from God is : "Don't worry son, I have made you for a bigger and better purpose THAN OTHERS,so the price you have to pay for that will obviously be different THAN OTHERS..."